Three years ago on a life-altering vision quest, tears streamed down my dirt stained cheeks while I sat barefoot on a rock face to face with a pod of dolphins on a secluded pocket of beach in Big Sur, CA. It was in this journey that I was confronted with the painful realization that my life’s creation was not mine. It was constructed for my family, peers, and societies approval. It was a creation that kept me safe, secure, and on the track of external approval. And what was mine — was pushed to the side as not being worthy…


Business is (through one lens) essentially an alchemical game of belief systems. At least it is to me. And when I fell into the sacred rabbit hole of my good old “business” — I intended to play the most magical, irrational, weird game I could muster.

Describing what I do in said business-land is equal parts hilarious and bewildering.

To put it simply: I do what what I am designed to do. I see, very deeply, into people and guide them.

I steward a journey into the depths of who you are and who you are not — and consequently…


As a Projector, you’ve probably spent a fair amount of time trying to get more energy. Consequently, you’ve probably had to face the hard realization that you can’t, in fact, get more energy and are therefore doomed to the hamster wheel of burnout, excess amounts of caffeine, and lying awake in bed at night wondering where all of this energy was during the day when you needed it, *sigh.*

The not-so-secret secret for Projectors is not that you need to find a way to get more energy but rather, need to learn how to free up energy that is not…


Earlier this Winter, I received the download that it was time to hold the vision and desire for $50K months. This was quite peculiar at the time considering I was hanging out between $15-$20k and $50k felt like a rather large jump. Nonetheless, I’ve learned to trust what I receive and set out on the journey to $50k.

A LOT has transpired in the mere 2 months since that number came through. I feel like an entirely different person with a renewed, revised, and upgraded perspective on life, business, and co-creation. …


When I had what you might call a “spiritual awakening” in my mid-teens, I found myself traversing the realms of extraterrestrials, conspiracy theories, high-dosage psychedelic use, spirit-science YouTube videos, western magic, and all-around varying lands of high-weirdness.

In my early 20’s I was naturally led to the “New-Age” part of the path. You know, the one filled with fluffy bunnies, The Secret, cultural appropriation, Eckhart Tolle, over-priced crystals, and phrases like “lightworkers, high-vibe, we’re all one, etc.” …


When I started my business I had one major “rule”… that my Human Design type (Projector) would be fully integrated into my business. Not just a little bit, not partially — fully. I had just spent 3 years living monastically on organic farms and felt at least halfway cleansed of my Projector PTSD from college, internships, side jobs, volunteering, a professional marketing job, and the 300 other things I decided to cram on my plate to test, one last time, if immense over-extending and productivity would somehow amount to a drop of worthiness (nope).

Little did I know at the…

Pilar Lesko

Sovereign Energetic Being • Portal • Oracle • Mystery Devotee

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